3 times they wanted to hospitalize her, and each time she found a way to convince them otherwise. When she was 14, her friend saw the cuts on her arms and told an adult, and soon Julia was going to therapy once a week and takes several different medicines for her depression. Scars cover her arms and legs, and I have to pretend not to notice. Now she's had 17 broken bones and only 5 were an accident. There have been several times where she considered killing herself. Starting when she was 9, she began to hurt herself, whether it meant breaking her arm or leg, bashing her head against a wall, or taking a blade to her skin. She's not even 18, but she's already messed her life up in more ways than most adults have. Love, without the complications, is worth freezing in time.This song made me cry 'cause it had me thinking about the Julia I know. But opening yourself to the world comes with risks: “I need you to believe me when I say I find it hard/To keep myself from floating away.” The titular chorus interrupts Jacklin’s reverie with a sudden roar of guitar like a train barrelling out of a tunnel, underlining the difficulty of holding on to a feeling. Nowhere is this more evident than on “Love, Try Not to Let Go,” which finds Jacklin wishing she could give her heart to “everyone somehow.” Love, she attests, is all she desires atop a breezy, piano-driven melody, she lets the word luxuriate in her mouth, savoring its promise. But when Jacklin allows the two to work in tandem, she excels. Some songs drift away, setting a mood rather than communicating an idea. Pre Pleasure takes its time unwinding and occasionally leaves too much unsaid. For now, she lets a cinematic string arrangement convey the breadth of her feelings and memorialize the friend’s place in her life. “All my words are caught up in a cloud/You know someday you’ll have to say them out loud,” she sings. The conflict described is hardly explosive-too much energy has already been expended supporting the illusion of congeniality-and Jacklin chooses to provide little of her own perspective.
It’s less a Goop-y self-care pitch than a modest declaration of commitment: “I’m making plans for my future and I plan on you being in it,” she reasons.Ĭloser “End of a Friendship” maintains a similarly measured perspective.
The barebones “Less of a Stranger” examines the complicated bond between mother and daughter, while on the subtly grungy “Be Careful With Yourself,” she implores a lover to quit smoking and stop repressing their feelings. It’s testament to Jacklin’s empathetic approach that her examinations of other people are equally nuanced. In between these incantations, she imagines a fantasy where she feels confident enough to stick to her own boundaries, a shift of belief suggested by a subtle swelling, a quickened heart. “I will feel adored tonight/Ignore intrusive thoughts tonight/Unlock every door in sight,” she softly assures herself, each word delivered with a quiet determination atop a patient and understated melody. The slow-burning “Magic” captures a delicate moment before intimacy when her desire for vulnerability struggles against shame and anxiety. Subscribing to the rituals of religion, she admits over a simple drum machine, was easier than real belief: “I felt pretty/In the shoes and the dress/Confused by the rest/Could He hear me?”Īs on Crushing, Jacklin’s most compelling songwriting occurs when she explores her relationship with her own body as she details on the swooning “Ignore Tenderness,” connecting with pleasure can be an uphill battle. On the opener, “Lydia Wears a Cross,” Jacklin paints a vivid scene of parochial school days spent listening to the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack and praying for Princess Diana. Co-produced alongside Marcus Paquin (the Weather Station, Arcade Fire), Pre Pleasure is an easygoing album from a mind that rarely stops racing. Her third record, Pre Pleasure, again seeks a balance between thinking about life and actually living it.
On her 2019 breakthrough Crushing, she fought for stability amid breakups and upheavals, finding strength in a renewed relationship with herself.
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